"this heart beats for only you"

ok so there is a slight chance that I am completely delusional. seriously the idea is very arguable. you know why? because i fell in love with you. and now my life is like a heart break country song. your dark eyes definitely dared me with danger. and yet i still hold on even though deep in my heart i know that this will only end in heart break. and then i will write some poetry and cry myself to sleep a couple nights. and yet i can't control it. i wish... I WISH i could have prevented this from happening. you know why? because you are a different kind of guy. different in not always a good way. your a little what i like to call a PLAYER! you break girls hearts and you don't care. you just dumped a girl because she wouldn't sleep with you. and yet i LOVE you still. sometimes the mere thought of you repulses me. i love you yet i loathe you is it even possible to have those kind of feeling mushed together. in a nut shell i am soooo confused. i just want to be with someone that is mature enough to be the kind of person i need him to be. but i don't think you have the ability.. i just now that somewhere between. Talon Falls, music and rides in your car.. i fell in love with you... and it is the most painful kind of love i have ever felt.