Paper Airplanes

paper air planes,

floating through the sky,

always leaving but never saying goodbye,

tiny lost paper plane,

where has your life went?

in the end when your crash will you find it well spent?

lonely little airplane,

you want to stay but your heart makes you go,

you loved him so much, but never told him so,

broken little airplane,

it’s been so long since you’ve been loved,

but the pain isn’t something your heart can rise above, 

naive piece of paper,

he said he loved you and you thought it true,

stupid, stupid girl he was meant to use you,

pretty pretty plane,

thought you were different but your the same,

tried to place it on someone else but your the blame,

strange paper plane,

always had friends but never fit in,

endlessly waiting for your life to begin,

plane plane go away,

searched and searched for a place you belong,

never found it even when its been this long?

paper air plane,

why are you still here?

your afraid to leave but what’s to fear,

fly paper airplane fly,

it’s what your made to do,

spread your wings and soar through the wide blue.

so this is what it comes down to?

i don't understand this? i haven't talked to you in nearly a year... and then out of the blue this? no he didn't contact me, or one of our mutual friends mentioned his name. I keep dreaming of him, and i have no clue why? it's not like im thinking about him. but yet still almost every night i dream of him? my friend blake said that all things happen for a reason and this a sign that we belong together. my friend shoshanna told me that my subconscious  is still in love with him? im like WTF!! im totally over him. its been over a year i even have TALKED to him. urgh im just so confused. that's all there is to it.