Today was the day I feel out of love with you

well the title is a little misleading. I still love him. But something changed today. Well I guess something has been changing. I dont even want to see him anymore. Because it hurts knowing he will never want me or love me the way I love him. Something switched. Or changed. Used to when I thought of him I would smile, my eyes would shine, people said I would glow. But now.... I dont think it shows. If anythings shows its the hurt. The hurt of a first love dead before it had the chance to truly life. He said something once, something along the lines of "Why does God put wonderful people in my life then take them away." Well, Daniel I ask God a similar question. All these years I have wished and prayed for love. Someone that knows me inside and out and still will be there. That is you. Its shocking how well you know me... yet you are still here day after day. I ask God why he would put something that I have wanted and wished for my ENTIRE life... Put him there right in front of me, dangling him infront of me like a carrot teasing a donkey. God makes my eyes see that Daniel is everything that I want and need. Then tell me I can not have him. He took him away with out making him leave. With out letting me leave.